New year, new blog?
I don't know, it makes sense in my head.
I never got the hang of regular blogging. I never decided on a direction for my blog. So it just seemed like a good idea to start over.
I thought it would be easy to get back on track with Weight Watchers and running after the holidays. A new year means a fresh start. But I've been bogged down in negative thinking, focusing on all the ways I failed to reach my goals during 2013. I know, it's a very defeatist way of thinking, but there you have it.
I get overwhelmed very easily and right now I am overwhelmed by everything. I am overwhelmed by money woes and working two different jobs and potentially a third, and trying to find time and energy to go to the gym when it's minus ten degrees out and I am exhausted and freezing and trying to eat right but failing because I want cookies and pizza. And when I get overwhelmed insteady of taking small steps towars tackling everything, I tend to burry my head in the sand and ignore everything. So now it's the 11th of January and I weigh 266 pounds and I have done none of the things I said I was going to do when 2014 started.
What I know works for me is to talk about it so I'm hoping to get into a routine of either blogging or writing in a physical journey.
My goals for 2014:
The biggest goal I want to achieve is to reach 100 pounds lost. That would put me at 203 pounds and is 63 pounds away. Logically I know I can do this, but right now at this point it feels impossible. I keep letting myself get hung up on numbers.
I really want to complete a half marathon. Another thing that seems impossible, but I want to make this happen.
